Blog Update: Struggles with Depression

Well it’s been awhile since I’ve posted anything and there’s many reasons for that. My life has been a bit all over the place and I’m doing my best to get it straight.

I have always struggled with bouts of depression. Recently, it had gotten much worse. I’ve been on and off medication for years. I’m very irresponsible with keeping up on my health, which includes dealing with diabetes. 

I say “trying” because it’s a constant battle to keep myself on the right track. I’m not doing the best I can at the moment and it’s killing me. I want to improve but I often feel so down, tired and unmotivated. I can barely sit down and focus on any task because my minds so all over the place.

Now as for the blog. My posting has been inconsistent for a long time because of all this. I started this blog because I wanted to write about the things I loved. I ended up focusing on literature but I wanted to do more. I really wanted to make something out of this blog — I feel I had a good start but then fell off and I need to fix that.

I’m going to be posting again, I’ll aim for a weekly schedule at least. I’ll still talk about books a lot but there will probably be more topics (tv, movies, anime, games, culture, etc) 

I know my following is small but I feel I should still explain. Posting will resume and I apologize for lack of consistency. 

I also want to thank all my viewers – it means a lot that you’re interested in what I have to say. 

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The Great Reading Slump and Update

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Reading slumps. Every book-related blog or Youtube channel seems to talk about them at one point. They’ll usually come with advice on how to get out of the slump as well. I’ve been through a few reading slumps over the years but nothing really major. It was usually just me taking a short little break from my most important hobby and then quickly returning to it.

But this was a bit different. I was actually in some sort of deep depression. It was a struggle to mentally focus on any book. Now, I did have video games (Fire Emblem, mostly) to fill the void a little. But it wasn’t enough, reading’s a part of who I am and when I’m not doing it on a fairly regular basis I feel weird and extremely sad.

This slump is also different because I felt it went on for too long. I couldn’t explain why it started either. I guess I just needed a period to gather my thoughts.

Because of the slump my blog died for a while. Well, I hope to start writing again. And like before, the main focus will be books and literature. I’ll be throwing in some posts on movies, video games and other things (the blog does say “Literature and more” after all). But I will be once again be writing about the various books I read or have already read.

Well, goodbye slump.

I don’t really have any advice for getting out of one. I feel that everyone has to escape their slump in their own individual way – there’s no universal solution.

Medieval Selfies

Very cool post 🙂

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Self-portraits of medieval book artisans are as exciting as they are rare. In the age before the modern camera there were limited means to show others what you looked like. In the very late medieval period, when the Renaissance spirit was already felt in the air, some painters made self-portraits or included themselves in paintings commissioned by others. Stunningly, the medieval painter Jan van Eyck showed himself in the portrait of Giovanni Arnolfini and his fiance: he is staring at you from the mirror that is hanging behind the couple. For those who still didn’t get it, he painted above it Johannes de eyck fuit hic, Jan van Eyck was here” (Fig. 1, more here). He added the date 1434 to the picture, making it a particularly early selfie.

Jan van Eyck, Giovanni Arnolfini and his fiance, 1434 (right) and mirror detail (left) Fig. 1 – Jan van Eyck, Giovanni Arnolfini and fiance (right)  and mirror detail (left)

As far as producers of books is concerned, there were only two kinds…

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“As Gay as Old Dad’s Hatband”: The 5 Kinds of Gay and Bisexual Characters in Stephen King’s Writings

Awesome article!

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Gay characters don’t take up a lot of room in Stephen King’s many books, but they are notable in their depictions, which can be negative and stereotypical, or positive…and stereotypical.  They can be quantified into five types: the Mannish Lesbian, the Trauma Victim, the Weakling, the Predator, and the Well-Adjusted. What follows is a documentation of every queer character from King’s bibliography, spanning the breadth of novels, short stories, teleplays, and screenplays.

Note: I decided not to include characters who were suspected of being gay but were not definitively proven to be, such as Douglas Posey from Rose Red, who is described by “family legend” as having a “thing for cowboys,” or a pair of barflies in The Dead Zone who are characterized by the sour bartender who is angry at them as “diesel dykes.” I am also not including male characters who prey on…

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